One day...

Things I need to remind myself on days that I feel like pulling my hair out.

One day I will walk down stairs and there will be no toys to clean up, no reason to make a big pot of coffee because I had a sleepless night of comforting my toddler who isn't feeling good, had a nightmare or just wants mommy.  Soon I won't be getting up to feed my sweet baby in the middle of the night and watch him smile at me when it is just me and him in the darkness.

One day the laundry won't be tiny little shirts, shorts and onsies that smell of sweet gently dreft.

One day my shirts won't smell of baby spit up and have stains all down the back of me.  

One day my arms won't be holding my tiny babies that want me to carry them to the car, their beds, up the stairs or just want me to hold them tight.

Why do we want to rush this time?  Why can't we just sit back and enjoy the beautiful ride of raising our children?  

Today, my house may be clean, or it may be dirty if someone stops by.  I don't care I am going to play, snuggle and squeeze my little ones cause they won't be little forever!

Wow life has flown by!

My sweet Bobby has grown from such a fun, loving little stinker to a wonderfully sweet three year old.  He is also a big brother times two!  Hadley Jane went from three months to Two years in a flash and our new baby James Blaine that we call Jimmy is almost three months old!

Over the last three years I have had the best and toughest moments of my life.  Learning how to keep my patience with not only one toddler but two had been a little more difficult than I thought and I have learned so much with each time I have lost it.  I try to remind myself when the kiddos start to challenge me that this is how they are learning so many things and teaching me so many things at the same time.

Since sweet Jimmy was born it is almost as if I am a whole new mom.  My anxiety I had with Bobby about being the perfect mom that can still do everything is gone. I now know if I don't get dinner made or the house cleaned up then we will just order out or make grilled cheeses and the house can wait until after kids go to bed. I know my husband would like homemade dinners but he now understands I don't just sit on the couch and do nothing all day.  I have yet to find more than 30 minutes in any day where I am just sitting on the cough relaxing before kids are sound asleep for the night. If the kids are playing well together I am doing laundry, trying to figure what I might be making for dinner, cleaning up, feeding a baby or sometimes taking deep breaths to try and help me see past the mess of the house and just dive in and play with the kids.

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I absolutely love my life with all the ups and downs that keep it more interesting.